Those Burning Questions

So what intriges us so much when some says they need to tell you something, but can't right now. Why does that one thing they have not said yet become the ine thing you then have to know? Maybe it is a part of human nature. Maybe it is because the worse things come to mind and you need to disspell your own fears. Maybe it's a woman thing. Although it is fair to say that men have the same type of curiousity, just about different things.

My new friend says that he has something to tell me. Hmmmm. Now when a guy usually says he has something to tell me it usually consist of the following:

1. Oh yeah, by the way, I am married. I hope that does not change anything. (This one sucks because I don't like even to be friends with one of a married couple. I hate being dragged into fights).

2. Just to let you know, I now have a girlfriend so I can't talk to you in public or she will find us out. (Shit, if you are with the love of your life then why are/were you hitting on me?)

3. The doctors say it is_________. (Oh MY GOD, I want to be out the door before that line is filled in.)

Need I go on?

However, this isn't supposed to be that type of friend. Not like my bestfriend that turned on me when we really got close. So truthfully I am not sure what this "thing to tell (me)" could be about. Although my money is one of the above mentioned. I just can't decide between them. He told me he was single, so if he is as honest as I hope it is not door number one. A little less honest it may be door number two, because as we all know single does not mean he isn't dating someone (it just that sometimes it is worse to have a non-married friend with a girlfriend than a married friend & his wife). Door number three doesn't matter as long as it is not transmittable by casual contact.

So I have this laundry list of things it can be. I think I am more worried that it may be something like, "I was too scared to admit that I am gay. So stay away from me you hetro/bi fish." Which I never understood why some gay men hate women so very much. Although I don't really think that, I mean I have already asked the right questions. I guess I am afraid it will be something too shocking. Truly the only that would shock me at this point is a marriage purposal. ROTFLMAO!!! I mean come on. I would worry about it more because of the refusal to write it down except I know sometimes you just have to say things in person. Even if it is small, just so you can gauge the reaction and control the damage. OH GOD DOOR NUMBER TWO!

Well here is my thing, I trust someone until they lie to me. So I trust that he isn't going to say anything about a wife or girlfriend. I have been very honest with him. I mean why would I lie to someone that I am trying to make friends with?

However, my nature is to worry. I worry about people I like. I worry about my friends, and loved ones. When the war in Iraq started I was bad. When my friend got into a car accident that killed his friend in the car, I was a wreck. I have this motherly/nurturing streek that runs through me...it drives me crazy. I totally love my friends. Of course I have to think you are pretty great before I call you friend. Well I don't knoe where to end this. Sooooo.....