Yes I am still here

SO as you can tell I made it through the night. Amazing what a little tequila can do for a headache. So I made some decision that I know will piss off more than one person. I have decided single is the way to be. I am going to wait. It is going to take a lot to replace the one great love in my life and until I can find what I found in one person again, I think I will be staying by myself. It wouldn't be fair to anyone else in my life if I didn't. I am not foolish enough to think that he will be coming back to me. He walked out a second time, and that is enough for me. I will always want him back, but that is more than I can hope for ever again. If you are reading this and YOU know who YOU are. I still think about that weekend I came up and we almost got that Applebee's waitress back to the hotel, that was fun. How come we never did try that again? I never met anyone that was so fun to be with and accepted me for me. I can accept people for themselves, but try to find one that accepts me? That is amazing. What I loved best about us was as much as we loved each other and yet were so not attached. I mean I loved the sex, but I could do with out or you as long as needed. It was special to me and yet not a biggie. Wow I miss BS'ing with you. Talking about sluts. Having fun. Drinking, dancing, everything in between. You totally messed me up. You gave me my dream. A lover and a friend. You fucking twink. I hate you and love you. Hope I can replace you with someone even better. Well I am tired of talking. You all enjoy your day. Later. Alsu to follow, the new song for today.