Oh Boy

Marriage from the past

So I ran into another old friend on line and can guess what is comming...Hey V. I got married. So it is about totally offical that everyone I know is married. So the tables have turned... It used to be I was married and everyone I knew was single. I guess it is funny and strange at the same time. Truthfully I could be married right now. But as I was telling my friend today, I only want to marry a guy that I am totally sure that is right for me and I am totally right for him. Until that time I cannot do it again. I won't make that same mistake just because I was lonely or someone thinks it is right for me. I think the picture in a way shows what I would like. Handfastenings are a probably one of the most interesting wedding rituals ever invented. Now take in mind that they were done for hundreds of years before & after Christianity came to places like modern day Great Britian. Ok so here are the basics. You meet someone and you want to get married, but you are unsure...so you go down to your local whatever and have a handfastening. It is like a marriage ceremony, and for intents and purposes you are married and are to act like it for a year (or another agreed upon time... in years) and after that year (or so) you go back to the priest or whatever and have another ceremony and are forever married or if it totally sucked than you just part ways and like you are not married anymore and you were not considered divorced so you could marry again in the church. OMG that is awesome. We have that today it's called marriage & annualment or the oh so famous hollywood marriages. Think how much the divorce rate would plummet if we made handfastenings legal. After a year or three you can say I can't stand this asshole/bitch fuck it let's not make it offically forever. It would make people who are sincere about marrying bonds stronger. For all those that found out it wasn't for them, then no harm no foul...it just didn't work out.

So besides all that, I have been thinking also. I have wore many rings but there is only one that I really want... The one from him (aka "you"..aka Stone the hard-hearted). Well Stone you will never get it will you? I was serious. I thought you were too. You gave all the signals to everyone but never said too many words. I guess I will never understand the way things are. All I know is that I love you Stone. In a strange way the things you have done says that you love me too. Although you say that it is to protect me, I don't want it. I would rather spend a hour in the sun with you and be alive, then hidden in shadows and silently with you forever. I wish you could understand that.

Well kiddies, I should go. Nothing else seems right to say.